Sunday, September 12, 2010

I hate this feeling

I'm in a mood this evening ... I can't put a finger on it, and I'm not even sure why I'm in this mood, but I am! I think I'm sad, but I'm not sure. I would say it is the weather, BUT last month the weather was nice and I got in this same mood... I am starting to think it is when I get a visit from Aunt Flo.
I was fine all day and then after the ft ball game I came home took a nap and woke up and BAM I was sad/depressed. But Aunt Flo has been here a few days so I don't get it why now?
The game was ok it was wet and drizzly... The last three minutes of the first game were even better a good friend arrived for the second game and sat with me and talked to me for a bit, that was nice.
I think part of the reason I am sad is that I missed my oldest daughters birthday lunch with her and some good friends and family... Even if there was no game I still wouldn't of been able to go, no $$$, David is so far behind on CS and I am so far behind on bills. I can't afford to do anything fun right now! All I could get Brittany for her b-day was a bag of Swedish fish (her favorite) BUT I feel so bad.
The kids are asking for this or that and all I can say is "I'm sorry!" Brian's school is nickel and diming me to death. It really sucks!
CS court wants to see David on Wed and I have to take a day off and lose money to go. Why doesn't he just pay?
Then there is just stupid stuff...
I just have to keep telling myself "this to shall pass!"

1 comment:

Bucko (a.k.a., Ken) said...

One day at a time, hope things go well on Wednesday.