Saturday, March 21, 2009

My Head Hurts

HE came over Tuesday night stayed for about 20 minutes maybe less, left me more confused then ever,He said he wanted to be with me and in a relationship, But then made a comment that he wanted to see me happy even if it was without him ( he must of heard my songs on myspace) ( he knows I like lyrics) or it was just a coincidence?
He says he wants to be in a relationship with me BUT on his terms... When he is not working (which is pretty much 24/7), he will squeeze me in. BUT work comes first it is just who he is. I just wonder what he is going to do when he is older and can't do this job anymore? Will his gun and un served warrants keep him warm at night or hug him when he is scared and lonely? So does that mean I am suppose to sit around collect cob webs and wait for him to call to ask me out? Dust my self off and be ready and say OK!
He said with summer coming his job his only going to get worse.
But he also told me that his last relationship was a very passionate one. I don't get how he had a passionate relationship if there was never any time? BUT then again she does live in the same town as him. So maybe?
I don't know I am so confused!
I don't want to hurt him. BUT I don't want to be hurt either.
Maybe we are just better off friends? I don't want things to get messy and ugly. I don't want to hurt or get hurt.
Just knowing some of the things I know though from all our talks makes me sad! I hate this!
Maybe just date? no relationship? no fuss no muss? no strings? go back to friends and go from there? Can you really go back though? Is that possible?

9 comments:

CntryMomma said...

It should like you need more than he is willing to give you. :o/ Don't settle just because you want to love and share your life with someone. You deserve better. (Not trying to tell ya what to do ... just my thoughts from this entry.)

LORI

Bucko (a.k.a., Ken) said...

Sounds like you are already hurt. I would recommend moving on and finding someone who makes you happy and does not cause this drama.

Melanie said...

HIS TERMS?!?!?!?.....HE WILL SQUEEZE YOU IN?!??!!?!?!?!?!?


You DESERVE better than that..WAY better!!

Melanie

Joann said...

Sorry, I agree with the rest of the comments. I know it's hard, but you really should move on for YOU!!

Adirondackcountrygal said...

can you add me to your myspace? Linda Wheeler

Adirondackcountrygal said...

Run!

Nelishia said...

Sweety, he must already have someone seriously. Don't allow yourself to be treated like this. Please, keep the door shut to him for your heart's sake. He's lying to you every time his mouth is open. You don't deserve any more drama. Someone is goig to find out what a wonderful person you are and beg you never to leave them. You're someone special just going somewhere to happen.

Nelishia

mortonlake said...

nelishia has said it better than i could,run.tc xxx

Sandra said...

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Only let me say that you deserve to someone better than this guy.
The men are always afraid, and prefer to pick up stones than a nice heart as yours.
the true man can keep a commitment, only that I dont know where are they now? there arent so much of them.
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