Tonight!

we got to spend a few hours together tonight and as I was walking him out ALL the stars were out and I said "ohhh look at all the stars!" and at the same time we both pointed to these stars in the sky and at the same time we both said "Look Cassiopeia!" "she" was right out above my front door. it's crazy the things we think and say... I pick up my cell just as I am about to get a text from him... I just wish we had more time together...
Rob is a very bright man... very smart, kind sweet and very romantic.... I love every second I spend with him. Just wish we had more time!
He is looking to get a second car for his daughter, so he doesn't have to share!
His ex she, doesn't drive either... so his daughter drives her places... and right now they only have one car and they share it! as soon as they get that second car and sporting events slow down ( he is a security gaurd for those too) ( should be soon) , we will able to spend more time together!

White Roes

I got a white rose (well 3) from Rob yesterday....


blushing....



The white rose bloom is easily one of the most popular wedding flowers. The color white conveys purity, honesty, fidelity, peace and integrity. The white flower is valued for its considerable beauty and detail. However, though they can convey deep emotions, due to the varied levels of meanings, one must be careful in choosing the color of their flowers.

White roses signify deep, clear emotions. They are given without reservation or ambivalence. The red rose signifies lust or passion, but the white rose goes much deeper to suggest an infinite love that goes to the very core of one’s being. It carries an almost spiritual significance. White roses symbolize devotion, kindness, and deep friendship in love.

What a week.....

WOW what a mixed bag of emotions this week from high and giddy on life to wanting to cry at the drop of a hat!



Get the bad out of the way and end on a good note....



First like I mentioned Brian had gone to live with his dad in the beginning of the yr... and David wants him on the zoloft. I told David about a week ago, From now on when he goes away on trips (which is a lot lately) I want Brian home with me , Since Sophie and I can't seem to understand each other... or she gets confused over the English language ... So he agreed to that...

So the other night had to take Bethany to the Dr's for a UTI... and while we were there we talked briefly about Bri and the zoloft and his peed said it is a low dose and he should be fine... So on the way home I said to David "Brian says you don't pay attention to him, the whole idea of him going there was for you to give him some 1 on 1 time !" and since Bri says that is not happen' in I want him home with me if he is going to be on zoloft so someone can keep an eye on him!

He says I pay attention to him! I said that's not what Bri says and Bri says Sophie even agrees with him that you don't!

David's answer was "HMMM"! ...



SO Bri is home with me! On his 16th B-day!!!!!



I told the kids there would be changes made!!! The first night went well!



We had a stake dinner with delightful company!!!! :)



We had a traumatic experience yesterday Bethany and I.... we were both in tears!

She had 3 UTI's since Oct and 2 of them just in Jan... so the Dr felt it necessary to do further testing.... I didn't realize the one test... a V.C.U.G was so invasive.... OH my gosh we were both in tears!!!!

Turns our her initial test at the Dr's office came back clear!!!! I wish they would have waited till the results from the test had come back first before they made her do the other test!!! I still get teary eyed thinking about what my baby had to go through!!!!

BUT the Dr just called and ALL is WELL!!!!


So now on the happy note!!!!!

I have a boyfriend!!! It's official!!!! Guess he isn't a boy!!! BUT you know what I mean!
I invited him over for dinner last night stakes on the grill... ( they do say a way to a mans heart is through his stomach) ;)
When we were saying good night for the night I asked him "so should I change my status on myspace?" he said he didn't know much about myspace (doesn't get on much) and I explained, how mine says single should I switch it to in a relationship? and with that he said "I would say we are in a relationship!" and sealed it with a kiss! :)

so I wonder if it was the kiss or the steak???

EX's.. My Son, Thoughts and opinions on Zoloft

david is pisisng me and thinks he knows more about raising the kids, then I do, even though I have been doing it 8 yrs alone, david thinks he can fix the kids in 30 minutes or less by letting them lose on the roller rink!!!! david thinks he is all knowing and knows the kids better then I do...

I am thinking of having Brian come home.... david wants to put Brian on zoloft and I have not heard one good thing about this medicine yet.... I am scared to death of him going on it and when I say to david is this a chance you are willing to take... his reply is/was "HMMMMM" like he was picking out paint for the wall 'Pink" or "blue"? HUUMMM....
I could smack him because then his second reply was YES, he is willing to take a chance on Bri's life by putting him on zoloft....


he says "Well he has been depressed since the beginning of the yr..." So I said "HMMMM... he has been living with you since the beginning of the yr!" then he takes it back and says NO longer....

I call david to try and tell him stuff that is FACT and he just won't listen! he knows it all and I know nothing!!!
he still thinks I am that naive little girl he married!!!! I hate it!!!!
Maybe I should release the bitch in me and show him!!! according to the kids sophie does! whats one more bitch for him to deal with!!! EVEN though I am standing up for myself and the kids I am to nice about it!!! Maybe I have to change that!!!



I want Brian back and if he doesn't give him back I will have to use my connections!!!! I wouldn't do that BUT if push comes to shove... I will call my lawyer...



He is making my life miserable now that he knows I am happy , with Rob....

I seriously think he doesn't want to see me happy!!!!

a snip it from my Private Blog

here is the "Kisseme" story part of my private blog entry....


OP was 2-6
I was telling him all my myspace friends the top 40 who was who and how I knew them... Well for the life of me I could not remember where my number three lived I knew it was fl but the town forgot it!!!! So he was rattling off some.... Pensacola.... I would say NO, Orlando??? again me NO then he said Kissemee, I said NO not yet.... he just laughed.... Brittany told me I was a dork!

HIM????

So inquiring minds want to know...

Who him is???

Well I think I will share....

I shared in my private J guess I'll spill....

HIM would be an old high school (good) friend from back in the day, 25 yrs back....

He found me on face book on another girls page! Thing is I almost didn't add her to my page, BUT I did and boy am I glad I did! He told me he hardly ever goes on there but that one night he did and even went to her page ( they dated in high school) any way he saw me and said he HAD to add me, he gave me his number and I gave him my number and well we have been talking every night since and when we are not talking we are texting... Here he moved to Lancaster county too, so our paths could have crossed at one point but we never noticed... He is a rent a cop at the mall... Who knows how many times we could have passed each other in the halls at the mall and never noticed...

One e-mail I sent him my myspace page and he asked me to be his friend there... I said YES and I texted him to let him know "I said YES" and he texed back "would you say yes to an old friend stoppin" by?" he said he had to work (a different job not the mall) but rather come see me... so I said YES again..... he came over that night and pretty much every night since we have seen each other... Thursday night was the first, then Friday night at the mall, Saturday night at the mall, and today we had our first official date... dinner and a movie.... and our first KISS, kisses....

I have not felt like this in who knows how long! I have been on dates here and there since I got divorced , BUT have never felt like this with any of them....
He is, super nice+ , easy to talk to +, so cute+, taller then me + well duh I stand '5"2 , he is a PA st constable ( uniform)++, and he is bald +++++ not all guys can pull that off but OH BOY can he.....


we went to see "he just not that into you" GOOD MOVIE cute...
one part the guy says in sp many words that the girl is just not that into you if she asks for a take home box" when I asked for a take home box for my dinner, I looked at him and said Don't take this as a hint... Because I am... He laughed ....


I have another cute one I will share later.... It happened he other night though...

But it ties into something he said tonight.... ( if you read my private J you might remember)


he said "Kisseme now?" and well we had our first real kiss tonight!!!! :)

well i think

i may have figured out why i can't sleep???
LOL and it's not so bad after all....

I go to sleep thinking about him, I wake up thinking about him ...


though I am sleep deprived I am still happy!!!

So I guess it is not a bad thing after all...

What's up????

Oh my gosh not sure what is wrong with my body... Most of the week I have been getting up at 4am, today the only day I can sleep in and I am up at 3am... what's up with that? Guess I am going to have to go to the Dr's and check it out! I am kinda of tired of morning coming in the midddle of the night!