Cry

Did you ever have one of those days you just want to cry?  
I am having one of those weeks! Nothings seems to be going right. I feel like I am at the end of my rope and I can't hold on anymore. Everyone tells me I am a strong women to have gone through all that I have. But I don't feel strong. I put up a good front. BUT inside I feel like I am losing it. I want to scream till I have no more voice. I want to cry out loud; but all I ever do is cry silently on the inside. There are nights I prayer that tonight's the night the Lord takes me back. I don't want to do this anymore. I don't know how much I can do this anymore. I hate feeling this way. 

I'm Stuck

I am stuck. Stuck between what I want to do and what I should be doing. Stuck between a place of wanting to stop and having to carry on. Stuck between knowing and not knowing. Stuck between money and love, money and creativity, money and the future. Just stuck.
I just feel like giving up. It sucks.
I hate this feeling