Cry

Did you ever have one of those days you just want to cry?  
I am having one of those weeks! Nothings seems to be going right. I feel like I am at the end of my rope and I can't hold on anymore. Everyone tells me I am a strong women to have gone through all that I have. But I don't feel strong. I put up a good front. BUT inside I feel like I am losing it. I want to scream till I have no more voice. I want to cry out loud; but all I ever do is cry silently on the inside. There are nights I prayer that tonight's the night the Lord takes me back. I don't want to do this anymore. I don't know how much I can do this anymore. I hate feeling this way. 

I'm Stuck

I am stuck. Stuck between what I want to do and what I should be doing. Stuck between a place of wanting to stop and having to carry on. Stuck between knowing and not knowing. Stuck between money and love, money and creativity, money and the future. Just stuck.
I just feel like giving up. It sucks.
I hate this feeling

You Will never know

It's easy to Delete a number, Ignore a call or Unfriend someone But... Moving on and erasing that person from your heart seems very difficult... A friend who understands your tears is much more valuable than a lot of friends who only knows your smile! PAIN makes you STRONGER. FEAR makes you BRAVER. HEARTBREAK makes you WISER. It's so strange how quickly things change, and the person you're closest to seems like the person you don’t know anymore. Some Songs Can Make You Cry When You Hear Them, But Actually It Isn't The songs, It's The People Behind The Memories..... Our small,stupid conversations mean more to me than you'll ever know. Missing someone when you are alone is not affection BUT Thinking of someone even when you are busy is called real connection. "Respect The Feelings Of People, Who Touched your Heart Because, you Will Never Know When They Will Just Walk Out Of your Life And Never Come Back".

Blogging

It's been over 2 yrs since my last entry... But I am going to try to pick it back up and do a little writing each night, even if it is just a quote I like...  

believe in yourself and do what is best for you.

Over this past week I have learned an extremely important lesson. You can’t always keep everyone happy, in fact this can prove to be impossible! Sometimes you have to do what makes you happy, even if it doesn’t make you so popular with the people around you. You can’t let people alter your relationships with people you love ether. If you love someone and being with them makes you happy, other people shouldn’t be allowed to change that. Yes, you can listen to people’s opinions but don’t let their opinions ruin things for you. I almost made this mistake this week. Things that someone said to me kept going through my mind… I had to sit back and just think of me for a change, What made me happy. I never want to disappoint anyone so doing this was a little bit challenging. I thought about it for a while and came to the conclusion that people who love me will support me no matter what and at the same time I can love them all back in return. And sometimes it is possible for someone you love to be wrong, They can stress as much as they like about being right, but if you know in your heart that they are wrong, then you need to believe in yourself and do what is best for you.