you can spend....

“ You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could’ve, would’ve happened—or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the f*** on." Tupac Shakur

There comes a time...

There Comes A Time In Your Life
When You Have To Let Go Of
All The Pointless Drama
& The People Who Create It
So Surround Yourself With People Who Make You Laugh
So Hard That You Forget The Bad And Focus Solely
On The Good . After All, Lifes Too Short To Be
Anything But Happy

It's worth it

Rob ended up callin around lunch time, and he called twice yesterday too.
oh and he came over for a few minutes for lunch since he was in town... when he called at lunch time he asked if i would like some company! So of Course I said YES ....

LOL I have a funny to tell about this!

So he shows up in his work truck and he was here for a bit and takes a look at my heater(it's broken), he has a friend who goes into houses and cleans them out and sometimes comes across heater units , so we go down to take a look at my unit. I was in the middle of talking to him and he just grabbed me and kissed me. We shared a few kisses down there, As he was getting ready to leave , at the door (outside) we were kissing good-by... a neighbor is pulling up in her drive way! I start laughing in the middle of our kiss, and then say "my neighbors are going to think I am kissing the repair man!" He laughed and made a comment about fixing my plumbing.... ( bad I know).

Well gee how else am I suppose to pay for his services??? LOL....


I am going to stick it out! I really like him and I am a fighter! not a fist fighter or verbal.... BUT I fight for what I believe in and want!






oh and Ken and Mort I knew you both meant well by your comments, ;)

He's just Not that into you

funny thing is that was our first date movie that we saw together!

and here I told him I was into him, after asking the waitress for a take home box!!!


in the movie the guy tells the girl "and the girl isn't into the guy when she asks for a take home box on the first date!"

I asked the waitress for one and looked at him with a wink and said "don't worry I am!"

foolish me!!!!

Benefit and Time?

Mort, that is all I ever do is give EVERYONE the benefit ofthe doubt...

I am to kind hearted and naive like that! I gave it to my ex and look where that got me! I gave it to the OLD R and that got me no where and waiting four yrs!

And Time, Ken, how much time??? a day, a week, a month, a yr??? I feel like I am in a long distance relationship again and he doesn't live that far away. If we don't have any time together how will we ever know?

every time he says he is coming over something suddenly comes up! I get my hopes set high only to answer his calls with him on the other end saying "something suddenly came up!" it's always work... emergencies... I am sure there are other guys who can take it, he could say he has plans... BUT nope, everyone else comes first. That's not healthy in a new relationship.

How many "emergencies" , how many "something suddenly came ups" how many "Sorrys" do I put up with until I say ENOUGH is ENOUGH No more?

I am tired of being placed on the back burner!

for once I want to be on a pedal stool!

guess that won't happen in my life time!


I shouldn't have fallen so hard and so fast!

Silly me!

This is not right the way he's treating me, it started off great, (maybe just one of his game moves). I care about him but now I feel as if he is just leading me on. I give up for now, NO more first move texes on my part. If he wants me, he WILL find me and he WILL make a way to get to me.

So as of now the ball is in his court.... And so far he has made NO moves this morning to make contact.

Brain Freeze

I haven't written here in a while, because I don't have much to write about! I have brain freeze and no life to go along with it...

Let's see my love life? That's a joke... What love life?
WOW I thought I felt alone when I was single... Feeling alone when you are suppose to be with someone sucks more then being alone single! I haven't seen Rob in almost 2 weeks, every time he says he is going to come over "something" comes up! So I just don't get my hopes up any more like I use too, once again I am use to rejction. I won't get all giddy and excited till I see the white of his eyes! There for a while it was almost every other day... and even once in the very beginning ,it was 4 days in a row. I don't know, I really like him a lot I do... I'm not a needy person , BUT at the same time I like companship! And how are we ever going to figure out if it is meant to be if we never get to spend any time together? I feel like I am in a long distance relationship, and I have BTDT before, BUT the thing is we dated local for a year and a half before he took off for college for the other 4.5 yrs of our courtship. So our relationship was pretty much grounded and nurtured. This when I get there I get there, Oh I'm not getting there is really making it diffcult.

And it's official I am FAT!!!! According to my neighbor anyway... Last Saturday he yells from across the way "HEY NEIGHBOR!" then with an added "ARE YOU PREGNANT?"
Gee thanks a lot!!! I felt like saying something back (a come back) something about him being dickless... BUT for once was at a lost for words! ME!!! can you imagine me sarcastic Sharon speechless?

So as of now I am on a diet and will do whatever it takes to lose 20 pounds!
Sorry "D" if I look like I've been hitting the crack pipe(your words) ! I rather look like that then fat and pregnant!!!

So since this diet has started I have lost about 4 pounds! I've cut soad out of my diet 6 almost 7 weeks ago. Haven't had a drop of it. I cut down on iced tea too and drink lots of water, a juice with Acai berry in it, and protein water. I eat a very small breakfast, little if any lunch ( salad) and then a normal dinner with a loooong power walk after wards. With a green tea pill too!


Kids are all doing well! Bethany won't be in the Fashion Bug fashion Show like she was in the yrs past! Fashion Bug stopped selling her size clothes! And my size too!!! Can you believe they did that, especially in this economy? They just lost three customers! LOYAL customers at that too! Bethany was disappointed when we went to sign her up last night, and they told us the news! Well she did get a 30 dollar pair of jeans for 5 dollars out of it though, since they are discontinuing her size! I should go back down and get her a few more for the next few years! Guess it won't be to long before fashion bug goes out of business altogether! Especially when Target finally gets here, and in the same shopping center as FB!

Well so much for having brain freeze...
BUT it wasn't all that either... I promise, I will get back to this blog, with something interesting. I just have to find something interesting to get back here with.

I am a SUIVIVOR!!!!

I am a SUIVIVOR!
I survived childhood abuse, I survived scoliosis, I survived a cheating husband, I survived anemia, I survived a thoracic meningocele,I survived GIST!!! !THIS TO SHALL PASS!!!! I am a SUIVIVOR!!!!