New Year... Trying this again...

I use to love to blog... BUT ever since AOL got rid of J-land it has never been the same.
Also the last few yrs have kept me pretty busy. And in all honesty I have just been a bit lazy.

maybe I will post every day maybe I won't

maybe I will post my shenanigans... or maybe I will just post  deep meaning quotes.


"Be careful who you open up to. Only a few people actually care, the rest are just curious." 

I just want to blog..but...

I don't know what I want to blog about...
So much on my mind... it's all jumbled. I don't know where I want to start...

New Year New Chapter

Happy New Year !
Going to Try and blog more!  I know I say that a lot. But I figured it's a new year and it's still Jan why not start off fresh. 
A lot has happened this past yr.  But I will try not to dwell on it. It doesn't do any good anyway. 

Cry

Did you ever have one of those days you just want to cry?  
I am having one of those weeks! Nothings seems to be going right. I feel like I am at the end of my rope and I can't hold on anymore. Everyone tells me I am a strong women to have gone through all that I have. But I don't feel strong. I put up a good front. BUT inside I feel like I am losing it. I want to scream till I have no more voice. I want to cry out loud; but all I ever do is cry silently on the inside. There are nights I prayer that tonight's the night the Lord takes me back. I don't want to do this anymore. I don't know how much I can do this anymore. I hate feeling this way. 

I'm Stuck

I am stuck. Stuck between what I want to do and what I should be doing. Stuck between a place of wanting to stop and having to carry on. Stuck between knowing and not knowing. Stuck between money and love, money and creativity, money and the future. Just stuck.
I just feel like giving up. It sucks.
I hate this feeling

You Will never know

It's easy to Delete a number, Ignore a call or Unfriend someone But... Moving on and erasing that person from your heart seems very difficult... A friend who understands your tears is much more valuable than a lot of friends who only knows your smile! PAIN makes you STRONGER. FEAR makes you BRAVER. HEARTBREAK makes you WISER. It's so strange how quickly things change, and the person you're closest to seems like the person you don’t know anymore. Some Songs Can Make You Cry When You Hear Them, But Actually It Isn't The songs, It's The People Behind The Memories..... Our small,stupid conversations mean more to me than you'll ever know. Missing someone when you are alone is not affection BUT Thinking of someone even when you are busy is called real connection. "Respect The Feelings Of People, Who Touched your Heart Because, you Will Never Know When They Will Just Walk Out Of your Life And Never Come Back".

Blogging

It's been over 2 yrs since my last entry... But I am going to try to pick it back up and do a little writing each night, even if it is just a quote I like...